Maasee Possee

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

My weekend...

So, I should be writing my physics lab report that is due at 6:30 tonight, but I'm not. I had a real great weekend.

Friday night, Linds, Lex, Leah, Traci, and some other girls from my floor went to Sig Ep for a frat party. It was great. Great music, lots of dancing, which you all know I love to do, and no pressure to drink. As most of you know my views on drinking, it's not like I would have drank even if people had pressured me. It was a hat and tie party. I went searching for a cheap tie, but I didn't want to pay $4 for a tie I'd never wear again... besides, I'm a college student, I can't afford to fork out money like that, haha.

Anyways, so after two and a half hours of dancing, we walked back to our dorms and hit the sack.

Then Saturday, Linds and I had to get up to go play pep band for our homecoming football game. That was not an easy thing to do. I woke up around 10:20 and we needed to leave around 10:45. I knew Linds wasn't up, so I went and woke her up. Then I got ready and at 10:55, went back into Linds's room and she was still sleeping. I was like, "Linds, get up!" She's like, I'll be ready in a minute. Then she looked at the clock and was like, I swear it was 10:30 a minute ago. Haha, so she got ready real fast and we walked to the ARC and the football field.

That was insteresting. The minute we started walking, we were regretting it. Two and a half hours of dancing and then walking a far distance is not good. Plus once we got to the football field, we had to stand the entire game, which was 3 and a half hours. My knees, ankles, and feet were killing me! Then a storm was coming and Linds and I were gonna go to the Union to get some food, but I convinced her that we should order pizza instead and have it delivered, because it was gonna start pouring. Well, as we were walking back, it started raining, and then when we got into the dorm, it started pouring. We ordered pizza and watched a movie and then I took a 3 hour nap.

After that, Lex and Leah convinced me to go to another party that night. I also found out that Katie and Lindsay were coming down to stay over night. That made me real excited. I couldn't wait to see them again, especially Katie.

So, I showered, and then attempted to cut my bangs. I say attemped, because the mirror over our sink is a medicine cabinet, and when I was trying to cut my bangs, the mirror kept popping open. It was not cool at all. Finally, Traci got some duct tape and taped it shut. I got my bangs cut and right after it, the mirror popped open again, even though it was taped shut. How weird...
I sat around and waited for Katie and Lindsay, so we could go to the party. They finally showed up, and we were off to the party at Phi Si.

It wasn't as good as the night before. It was extremely loud and the speakers sounded like they were about to blow out. There was a fog machine too which made it hard to breath, but we managed to dance our lil hearts out. I could tell that Katie felt out of place, and awkward, so we danced together the whole time, and one time, when we were dancing, we were facing each other, a big black guy came up behind me and started dancing with me, I didn't care. But then another black guy went up behind Katie and started dancing with her, it was really funny. Then the guy behind Katie started pulling more people in, and we had a huge grinding line going that started with me and Katie, it was great!

Some creepy guys kept dancing with me and finally Katie, Linds, Lindsay, and I left with Paul and went to a different party. Now I know that Katie felt real out of place here, because she was almost constantly touching me and making sure I was there. We went to this tiny brown house which had no lights on, and we were probably close to the only white people there. Mind you, Paul is a tall black guy that is on the basketball team. I kept on dancing, I didn't care. I just wanted to dance.

A lil while later, Katie and I walked back to the dorm and Lynds and Lindsay rode back with Keaton. Katie and I had some good talks. We hadn't talked like that in forever. It was great! I love having her around to talk to.

When we got back, I had to show Katie our random soda machine. No matter what button you push, you never know what you're gonna get. Lynds and I pushed the buttons 5 times once, and only was the soda machine right once. It's funny. Then we went to the first floor lounge and watched tv. We watched boxing because there was nothing else on.

This kid Josh came over and started talking to us. He was talking about how he lived in Alumni, my residence dorm, but didn't know anyone because he was either in Lank or Brandt, so he was trying to meet as many people as he could in our dorm. We talked for a while, and then Katie and I started talking again and he left.

We went back to my room and we tried sleeping on my bed. These beds are too tiny to sleep comfortably two people in them. Oh well. We managed.

Sunday was my day of rest. Katie and Lindsay left a little bit before 12. I did a little bit of homework, and then took another 3 hour nap, haha. I like naps alot. I got up finished my homework and that was the end of my weekend.

It was pretty eventfull compared to the other weekends I've spent here. Hopefully the other weekends will be at least a little bit like the past one...

Well, back to school, back to school... gotta get me an edgumication, haha. Just kidding. But seriously, I gotta....

Wednesday, August 30, 2006

College life...

Well, I wasn't sure what I was going to write about, but I'll start here. I'm listening to the song "Can't Touch This" by MC Hammer, and it made me think of the movie "Kung Pow." I love that movie, I think I shall watch it sometime, probably tomorrow, considering I only have two classes. But I need to get some of my homework for Monday done, because I am coming home this weekend.

Valpo is playing WLC in football and I'm going to the game. I'm quite excited. I can't wait to see some of my friends again. Don't get me wrong, I've made tons of great new friends here at Valpo, but I really would love to see my friends again.

Anyways, so college life. I love it. I wouldn't want it any other way. I just have tons of homework every night, but it's college, so that's expected. Also, the food kinda sucks, but it's pretty good for cafeteria food. I make my own food as often as I can. I also love being able to take naps pretty much anytime I want. It's awesome!

My roommate just came back in here and told me she was picking fuzz out of a carpet. Haha. Well, my roommate and I get along great. Her name is Traci. We have a lot of fun. We watch movies and color and fun stuff like that.

Then there is Erica. She is awesome. We met at orientation this past June. Her and I are great friends. We have tons of fun together. We are almost always laughing. And if you know me, you know I love to laugh. We have Wednesday movie/coloring and if Keaton comes dot-to-dot night. It's a lot of fun. Also, we have smoothie Thursdays. And then I walk her to her next class. We made a cake yesterday. Well, actually we made cupcakes and made the cupcakes into a cake, it was funny. Then I make scrambled eggs with the left over eggs. Yum.

Also, there is Tony. I met him at orientation too. He is hilarious. I love hanging out with him. He's black, a football player, and from Chicago. We hang out a lot. I think it might become more then just friends thing. I think it's probably past that already, but I'm not gonna jump to conclusions yet. Anyways, he's really cool, and you all should meet him.

Tonight, I joined the yearbook staff. I'm going to be a photographer and part of the design department. The awesome part is that I get paid for it. I'm excited.

So, my computer is completely fried. I almost cried when I heard that. I paid how much money for it, and never even got to use it. I was so mad. But Keaton took me out for icecream after I found out it was completely fried to make me feel better. I'll have to admit that it did help. So, I'm bringing it home this weekend, and hopefully the guys can fix it. If they can't, I'm gonna be so pissed. I need a computer, but I do not want to pay for another one. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know.

Well, I think that is it for now. I will hopefully be writing more often. I will try to keep you updated in what is happening in my life. I probably will post my blog on MySpace before I do on here, but who knows. You can check both, if you'd like. Well, untill next time....

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

So, this summer has been pretty awesome so far. Work and band took up most of the first part of it, but I'm done with band now, and probably wont be working too often anymore. I leave for college in a month, and time has gone by so fast.

If you want to know about my band trip, Evan covered pretty much everything in his last blog ( so check that out if you'd like to know anything.

This past Monday, I went and got my belly button pierced and a tatoo. The tatoo is a tribal heart that I drew. I really like it, but I'm sort of in pain and probably will be for a while. I didn't tell my parents about either of them, so I've been trying to hide it, because I'm pretty sure they would flip out if they knew. I'll wait until I go to college to tell them. Not much they can do about it then.

My graduation party is coming up quickly, July 29th. I'm pretty excited to see all of my friends again. I'm having it with my cousin Lindsay, who also graduated from Lakeside. We're having it at Harnischfeger County Park. I love it there, it has mini golf and volleyball courts and horse shoes, I think, and a huge play ground. My brother's band "Liquid Courage" is also playing. I cannot wait for that.

I'm realy sick of doing all this stuff to get ready for college. I think I might be sort of regretting going to Indiana for college. I love Valpo, don't get me wrong, it's a great school and I know I will love it there, but it's so far away from all my friends. They all keep telling me that I can't go to college at Valpo, but since it's the only school I applied to, I don't really have a choice. Valpo is giving me great opportunities. I'm on a 5 year plan there and my 4th year, I get to go to Germany. I get to study abroad for the first semester, but then the second semester, I get an internship at an engineering company over there. I'm really excited and it's the chance of a lifetime. I just hope I can deal being away from everyone for an entire year. When I get back from Germany though, I'll pretty much have to start my 5th year of college, I won't have much of any break to visit anyone.

Another thing is that I decided at the end of the year, that I wasn't going to date anyone this summer, because of me going to college in Indiana. I don't want to try to work out a long distance relationship. I had a hard enough time with Elliott living an hour and 15 minutes away. I would never be able to have one with someone living in a different state. But now that I decided that I wasn't going to date anyone, I start to really like someone, actually, 2 someones. One graduated with me, and we're pretty close. I'm pretty sure he thinks nothing more of me than just a really good friend, which I guess is good and bad for me. Good, because I'm going to Indiana and bad, because I really like him and listening to him talk about other girls kinda saddens me. The second someone I've liked for a long time, probably 2 years. He's always been a huge flirt and I never thought he would actually like me, but someone pointed out to me that when I was with the other someone, he looked depressed and said he really likes me. He's still in high school, and I don't actually know if he likes me that way. Like I said, he's always been a huge flirt and girls love him, so who really knows.

Maybe it's a good thing I'm going to Indiana. If I were to stick around here, I have no idea what I would do in this situation. Well, it's not like it's been the first time. Either no guys like me and I would even think of dating, or more than one does. It's quite frustrating. I won't have to worry about choosing if both of them do like me. I'll just start my new life down at Valpo.

Other than that, I've just been having fun hanging out with my friends as much as I can until I move. I hope I can make the most out of the time I have left here in Wisconsin. I love you all and hope someone actually reads this...

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Summer time

Well, it's summertime and hey, I'm single. I guess it's time to go have the time of my life. I hope this summer is awesome. I have a feeling it is going to be. College is coming up fast and I cannot wait. I guess I could wait, considering I'm leaving pretty much all of my friends... hopefully they will come and visit me. I guess that's what I get for going to Indiana for school. Wow, I really cannot think of much to talk about, so I'm gonna head out. I added a new song I wrote to my blog on myspace, so check it out if ya want. Hope to hear from you all soon!
Love always,

Sunday, May 14, 2006

What the heck?

Ok, so I haven't written in a long time, but I'm pretty sure no one would read my blog anyways... Well, the only problem is, is that I keep getting comments on my blogs, but it's spam. Are people allowed to do that on here? I think it is pathetic that people have gotten so low as to leave spam as a comment. What has this world come to?

But anyways, I've had two proms in the past two weekends, and I'm exhausted. I have 2 weeks of school left, and so many projects due it isn't even funny. I'm so sick of school and cannot wait to graduate. I just want to get this school year done.

Plus, my boyfriend has gotten so serious, and I'm pretty sure that's not what I want right now. I'm going to Indiana for college in a few months and will hardly ever be home. We hardly ever see each other the way it is, because he lives over an hour away from my house, and his parents don't let him drive anywhere. It doesn't even bother me that I only see him once a week or once every two weeks... I don't think that's a good sign. When we first started dating, I was so happy, but now... I don't know. I just don't feel the same. He pretty much has our entire life planned out and we've only been dating for a lil over three months. Plus this summer, he's going to be working around 50 hours a week, and I'm going to be working and I have marching band at least 4 times a week, plus there is a two week trip in the beginning of July. We're never going to see each other this summer either.

I'm pretty sure him and I want different things from our relationship, and I don't know how to break it to him. He's completely obsessed with me. I always end up dating guys who are madly in love with me, and I just don't feel quite as strong about it as they do. I'm more of an independent person, but guys don't tend to understand that the way I'd like them to. I guess I just need to talk to him about it, but I don't think I want to do it over the phone, but I won't be seeing him for who knows how long. *sigh* I guess I'll just figure something out...

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Snow day!

So, today I have no school, because it's a snow day! YAY! And so I slept until 11:30 and then have pretty much been on the computer all day, I should be doing homework. And my dad is working on our bathroom, our only bathroom, so I've been sitting here trying not to pee my pants, it's not a good situation. And then, my mom got cheese curds today. And you know how some cheese curds when you eat them, they kind of squeak? Well, that's how my mom likes them, so she puts them in the microwave. So she pretty much melts them and then gives me one and it's got like air bubbles in it, so I now figured out how they get squeaky, haha. Yea, this blog is boring, cuz I don't feel like typing everything I'm feeling right now, maybe another time. Plus I don't really feel good, so I'm gonna head out. I hope you all have a great day!


Monday, November 28, 2005

hello? is anyone there?

Yea, so I'm pretty sure that no one goes on this website anymore.... which makes me kind of sad, because I've started coming back to it more and more. But then again, maybe that is because I've been sick so much and have been trying to find things to do. So I'm on the internet almost all day, except for when I'm sleeping. And trust me, I have been sleeping a lot. Well, trying to at least. Lately I've had a horrible time trying to sleep. This stupid sickness keeps me up. And i finally fall sound asleep this morning around 8 o'clock, and my dad calls me at 9 because I had to get up for a doctors appointment, go figure. The doctor gave me two medicines, so I'm hoping it works so that I can go back to school tomorrow. Even though i don't really like school right now, the teachers probably aren't too happy with me, and I'm going to have tons of makeup homework. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to work my butt off as usual.... If only I could work my butt off, literally.... I have a big butt and that would take a lot of work....
Anyways, I've decided that I need a boyfriend. Granted I've only been single for what, maybe 2 months, I'm not even sure, but I'm sick of it. The only problem is that the guys that like me, I don't like, and the guys I like, don't show any interest in me, or just want to be friends, even though they've told me they like me at a previous time. I don't really like him anymore anyways. w/e. Maybe there are some boys out there that like me but havn't made it quite obvious enough yet for me to see that, and it'd be nice if it was someone I'd like to date... but then again, maybe there isn't. Oh well, I guess I'll just keep on searching.
I'm sorry for the randomness of this blog, there is just a lot of things on my mind and it's just coming out when I type.
Yea, so lately, my main group of friends has changed big time. I've been losing friends, but also gaining friends. My class has changed so much over the years. When Luca and I broke up, I didn't expect that I'd never see that group of guys anymore, but maybe it's a good thing. With the stories I've heard of what they do now, I don't really want to be a part of whatever it is they are doing. I've also pretty much lost my best friend Tom. I don't know what's even going on with him. He avoids me now, and the only time I can talk to him is on the internet, but he's never online anyways. I keep tryin to talk to him and asking him if we can hang out or at least talk in person, and then he says, "Why do you want to talk to me so much?" Yea, after that comment, I'm done trying. I guess friends just can't talk to each other anymore. He says he cares about me and our friendship, but I'm the only one actually putting any effort into trying to make our friendship better. I've met some new people that don't go to Lakeside. I think that's what I need, to get out of the loop of drama. I've also made some new best friends at Lakeside. I'm not the only one that's been affected by the way Tom has changed, and I've sort of banned together with those people. Maybe some day he'll realize what he's lost. Maybe he doesn't even think he's lost anything.
But hey, college is coming soon, and I wasn't really looking forward to it before. Well, lately, I've been looking forward to it more and more every day. This reminds me that I need to get the rest of my applications sent in... I wish Valpo would just let me know ifi got accepted, then I wouldn't have to worry about applying anywhere else.

Well, I guess I'm done for now. Hopefully someone reads this and I'm not just writing to myself. Well, I hope everyone has a great week and no one gets sick like me. I love you all and buhbyes~